The Black Wall.

       Black and ugly as ever. However, I stay Coogi down to the socks. - Notorious B.I.G "One More Chance." 

        There is a guard up. And for that I apologize but I cannot take it down, for the world has thrown too much of me. My guard is no secret. Its visible. It's my dark skin. & for some reason, it inhibits people from seeing me. From witnessing my beauty. They see the color of my skin and stop looking. They turn away from me. Finally, I see that you understand. I was hesitant to read the article Black Beauty and its discussion on the "less attractiveness" of Black women because of two reasons: I was afraid and I was hurt. The first time I tried to read your piece, I stopped in the middle of Kanazawa's scientific explanation as to why I (as a Black woman, I take this article to be speaking to me directly) am less attractive than other women and I simply could not stomach it. The piece was reminiscent of another piece I couldn't make it through: Do you remember those stories about the scientists who would disect black people in an effort to explain why blacks were better athletes? I can't quite remember the details; Google is no help and I know this isn't sounding like the most reliable article... but... please bear with me. For, these are just my thoughts. 

     Afraid and hurt. I was afraid you would agree. Afraid I'd get upset. I was afraid you'd be right and afraid I'd believe you.  I was hurt that the conversation was even taking place. Ashamed for anyone who believes the mess and in reality, I'd rather not fill my head with nonsense. It simply makes no sense for me to purposely listen to someone talk badly about me. I try to avoid stress as much as I can. I have no more room for pain. I know the argument and I've never cared to hear the reasons. If someone doesn't think I'm attractive, well hey. Your loss. I won't buy, for one second, that the difference lay in the actual physical, but rather the personality of the black woman. People are afraid of even the most beautiful black woman due to the traits ascribed to us before we breathe our first breath: Aggressive, loud, obnoxious, (my fav) ghetto. But there are reasons for all this that cannot be explained through science. How this same idea has brought many a black women to hold herself in low esteem, letting the world get the best of her until she gets tired of it all and takes on a "fuck you" attitude that is almost impossible to leave behind because... well, the shit works.  I haven't met many white women who hold grudges as much as women of color do (when I refer to white women, I mean plainly and simply the most stereotypical definition you think. By women of color... I kind of mean all others, perhaps except Asian cultures --including the Middle East-- as their dating and social interactions are much different than ours. More so though, I suppose I am speaking of American white vs American Black as that is what I know personally and for me to discuss peoples I have no experience with would be... stupid. ) Moving on...

      Still, I cannot agree with your synopsis and/or reasoning at the end. You explain that the hardship black women face may take a toll on their physical and I can see some truth in that. I can see how you arrive at that conclusion: bruising leaves scars. And I can also see that you're trying to help us out. But the only response I want to hear is something along the lines of, "Black Women are beautiful" and that is all. No further explanation. No in depth reasoning. And while I greatly appreciate your obvious concern and appreciation for the black woman, it doesn't make us feel any better that you agree. Regardless of your reason for agreeing and regardless of if there is some "truth" to it (as there is with any stereotype). The fact that you provided an alternate explanation only leads me to believe that there is a part of you that agrees  with the statement. Now the rest of this piece is my opinion. I simply don't think you did a good enough job standing up for me. You left me feeling like a lost cause. Like I had to "deal" with not being liked. Like if someone were  to find me beautiful, it'd have to be despite, my skin color. Because the only difference between a white and black woman is the color of her skin, I'm sure you are aware. But there was no discussion on familiarity of skin tone. How being side-by-side with a skin tone the opposite of yours might simply not be pleasing to the eye. I looked at the paleness of the legs of one of my co-workers and all I could think was jellyfish. & perhaps maybe when they see me, they do see monkey, I wouldn't blame them. Still, there was no discussion on that. 

The following is for my sistas. In defense of your beauty.

     Black women are not less attractive than white women. For all women are owners of their own individual beauty. Even the ones who are torn down, raped, beat, abused and looked down upon. In fact, they are the most beautiful. Black women have been the victims of sexual abuse for ages... can you please explain why this is so if they are not beautiful? If there is not some attraction? The reason black women are "less attractive" is because we allow this conversation to take place. And we feed into it. We brainstorm reasons why as opposed to reasons why not, or reasons why the proposition should be dismissed. This simply another debate that is accepted now but will wash over in time.

For example: 

Blacks are less human than whites. 

--because whites simply had more trading power and enslaved their black counterparts. And, when observed wearing no clothing and living amongst the animals, the newcomers and "explorers" considered them animals as well. 

Black women are worth less than black men. 

---because women get pregnant and are incapable for months during harvesting times. 

Blacks are less intelligent than whites.

---because they are not exposed to the same educational opportunities as whites, and due to the inequalities in this country and social imprisonment, most black kids have personal issues to deal with before (and after) they can tend to their studies. Not to mention, their parents can't afford fancy math camps so we go to free sports camps in the summer and fall behind our wealthier (usually white) peers. 

Blacks are more physically capable than whites. 

---because African weather/land is more similar to southern Americas than it is to the Europeans, therfore, the enslaved had prior knowledge of how to work the land. & in current day, there are few after school programs besides sports because it requires less attentiveness/materials/supplies and skill to teach kids play a sport than to teach them math and science, especially with outdated books because the system can't afford new ones. 

Black women are less attractive than white women.

---because everyone blindly agrees. Even black women. So as teenage girls we give ourselves to the world thinking that no one could possibly love us with so many other (more) beautiful women out there. We internalize our ugliness and our black brothers do the same. Then, they don't think we are beautiful. And if your own kind doesn't want you, then no one does. And if no one  wants you, you must be less attractive. And this causes the intellectuals to search for reasons to explain it all. In any way possible & for some reason,we're afraid to say otherwise. 

    We don't believe you; you need more people. Maybe the real reason is that whoever believes that hasen't been around the right black women. I mean, Halle Berry tops lists year after year. Explain, please? Or, because she's beautiful, we take her black away and explain that it's due to her white mother?  Well I'd challenge that it is just as likely that she is beautiful due to her black father. These things are only "true" when someone believes them. If you believe that whites are better than blacks, then, they are. And vice versa. YOU believe it. You bring it to life. You make it reality. You can believe what you want, but that sure as fuck is not my truth. There is not one reason why Black women aren't as attractive as other races. If anything, I think we are more attractive... oh, and as for this:

            “It is very interesting to note that, even though black women are objectively less physically attractive than other women, black women (and men) subjectively consider themselves to be far more physically attractive than others.  In Wave III, Add Health asks its respondents to rate their own physical attractiveness subjectively on the following four-point scale:  1 = not at all, 2 = slightly, 3 = moderately, 4 = very.  As you can see in the following graphs, both black women and black men rate themselves to be far more physically attractive than individuals of other races.”  (Kanazawa)

    So, if we think that we're attractive, why doesn't that count for something? My vote doesn't count? This is why I never trust statistics and "research", because it can be used for evil depending on who is looking at the data. Ok... so white people might not find black people attractive. So the fuck what? I, for one, am not interested in dating a white person --man or woman- so it makes no difference to me.  We see ourselves as attractive, why isn't that enough? What we think of ourselves holds no value?  Is this a way to say, Black people think they hot, but they not. That's fine that you like yourself, but we're here to tell you your ugly. No. The truth is, we find ourselves (and those like us) attractive, therefore we are attractive. 

       There is no excuse for a white person to not consider me an equal. But if they don't find me attractive, I... umm... don't give a fuck. I apologize for the vulgarity but, personally, I'm not fighting for anyone's acceptance. I don't think anyone should.  If I want to see black faces, I don't walk down Wall street, I take my ass right up to Lenox Ave in Harlem where I know I'm wanted. Just saying. You don't need to be accepted by everyone and I think we need to stop fighting for that. The only reason attractiveness matters is in choosing a partner; dating and romance. Wouldn't it be better to be with someone who thinks you're the most beautiful woman in the world? Regardless of that person's skin color and regardless of yours? I don't care what anyone else thinks.

   In sum: Frogs don't give a fuck what the fish think. They sit on their lily pads and keep it movin'. 

I liked this article. Shatter the stereotypes. End the racism.


& I'm sorry if this sounds angry. Not angry at you (writer), per se. I'm simply upset that we keep having these conversations & tired of defending myself against simple, ignorant bullshit.  &I'm a black woman. I have a bad attitude, don't ya know? ;)

& I write all my posts in 30min to and hour... as I multitask and do my real job so ummm... deal with the typos. lol... This is real. 

Stay Away from Black Women

         Black women have a tough time. She was right... men do have something against black women but... (SIDENOTE: Let's put this out ..Any man who won't date a Black woman simply because she's black does not exist to me. So...*Poof*) Who ever the girl is who wrote that to me has some underlying feelings in her own life that, while they aren't necessarily part of my day-to-day, obviously affect some women of color. It's a sad thought, that there are women out there who want nothing more than a strong Black man by their side... yet they feel like the one thing they have in in common with this man is the one reason they can't have them. 

     The guy I'm dating now is dark. I mean... he makes me look light skinned. But it's beautiful to me. We had had a brief conversation about this before. He claimed drak women only wanted light guys and I claimed the same of dark men. "Pretty black girls didn't like me, though," he told me. I had to sit and reflect on that. I could claim it's not true but I know that when I was young, I preferred a lighter man. They were more appealing to me. So perhaps I did turn down men based on their complexion. It made me feel sorry for him. He truly has no preference but he can't possibly date a girl who won't date him. Even sadder is how eligible this man is and, still, he gets the short end of the stick (aside from me) because of the color of his skin. The night I met him, I also met another guy (who was very light skinned). As my friends and I reviewed the night, as girls do, she called the light skinned one "young" and "cute" while my current guy was "black" and "ugly". However,  I didn't let the phase me, although I see how it could. Thing is, unattractive men can look more attractive simply due to the color of their skin --same goes for females. If you added a little depth, they'd look completely different. With a black man (or woman), I think you have to actually look at the features of the person. I think a handsome Black man is far more attractive than any handsome light man. Like... Reggie Bush has got it in the bag.

       Actually had a conversation about this last night but... I'm not digging any white boys and don't really think I'll end up with one. Would I date one? Sure, why not... but I'm more attracted to and, most times, more compatible with men of color. Black men, to be exact. Perhaps I am a bit abrasive. Rough around the edges. But if a man can't deal with that, that's his problem. There are plenty women of any race that are a handful. It's not just black women. If I had been white and written my posts Pretty Girl [Fight] and Round 2: Unfinished Business, what could have been said about me then? Would you still have attributed that to my race? Why is anything negative have to be representative of whatever race I am --or my skin color? & So what if Black women are  more aggressive than White women. That's why there are Black men. There are men out there (I believe) made for a woman like me. I am not a lost cause and would never being to look at myself that way. If you don't like you, why would anyone else?


      Point is... if any man is stupid enough to not a date a woman because of her skin color... he obviously ain't the one for me. I'm not here to convert him. I'm not going to try to make him like it. Or "get used to" it. Either a man likes me  or he doesn't. Why would I sit around and complain about men who don't want me? That's a waste of time. Instead, I think you should date men who find you irresistible. They treat you better. You shouldn't have to coax your way into someone's heart. It should simply happen.  I used to be upset at the men who "don't date Black girls" and wrote posts like "Oh, So You Don't Like Black Girls," but I'm sincerely over it. I just don't see the point in stressing about men who don't want me (which is what I was trying to tell the girl in Pretty Girl [Fight]). Life is too short. I'd rather give my attention to a man who loves what I look and act like.

With that said --- Next post: Attitude: You'll Never Find a Real Man. 

Ask Ella: The Relationship Curve & Moving-In Together

Heyyy Ella, 
so ive got a question i was hoping you could answer in one of your blogs... Why do relationships seem to become so bad the longer they go on? Granted they all dont turn that way...but im currently single...and my last relationship of 8 months turned really bad once she moved in with me..in my opinion she got lazy...so whats your take on boyfriend and girlfriend moving in together?
-Concerned With Time. 

Dear Concerned,  

       People change. It's a natural part of the human experience of growth. Like Lauryn Hill said in her Unplugged album, "Anything that ain't changing is dead." You have to expect people to change over time or else you're deny them their basic right to live. 

       Still, change is mostly only apparent from the outside looking in. I can tell you how I've changed over the years: I talk different. I walk different. I even think different. While some people might consider that bad, I don't see anything wrong with it because my change was positive. I speak with authority now. I walk with my head held high now.I'm capable of thinking beyond myself now, with reason. If you expect a person to stay the same in any given situation, you're going to be disappointed. One thing I will say though is that no matter how much I change, I'm still the same person. We can change as much as we want, internally, we never change. 

    That's why if you decide to move in with someone, you can both know them entirely and not know them at all --at the same exact time. You can spend as much time as you want with a person, but there are things you might get sick of. Simple things like, she doesn't clean up after you like she used to. This could be because she "got lazy", or she might have always been lazy.. you just never had a chance to see it. When a woman wants a man, we tend to clean up after them. We want to show them that we can take care of the house. That we do  know how to clean. But when you move in with a guys (or practically move in, as was my case) you get tired of cleaning up after him. Why do I have to clean? For some men, the woman turns into a live-in maid. We used to clean up after you because we liked you, not because we had to. It's also a hassle to have to clean up after two people as opposed to just yourself. Cleaning up after yourself is even an issue if your moving from living with a parent --who always cleans up after you-- to moving by yourself. Its even worse when you go from living at home with mom, to living with a significant other. I think this is even harder for guys who fail to notice that their sock are no longer bunch up in that corner. Somehow --magically and mysteriously --the sock have washed, dried, paired themselves and settled back into your drawers. It's not magic, it's mom. 

     How exactly did she get lazy? You know, women can be lazy, too. I've written time and time again about my Sunday "Me" days. IT's about time men know that we can be just as lazy as they are, society just pressures us not to be. I literally lounge around all day on Sundays. I wash my hair, I do my nails & I read magazines. That's it. I don't want to do anything.  But the guys I'm dating don't see this. All they see when they met me is a well put together girl who looks like she spends time making everything pretty -- I do. I love pretty things, but I'm human. I need a rest. & I understand this applies to men, too. Actually, to men more than to women. We failed to understand that a man will be a man whether we're there or not. When he was at home with his mom, he was probably sitting on the couch, with a bag of Doritos, playing whatever video game was hot at the moment. Then they move in with us and we expect them to be different. Nope. Welcome to someone else's life. 

     Over time, two things happen: people get comfortable, and they grow. Once you get comfortable, you stop caring so much about the little things. This is why after a time, boyfriends stop taking you on dates. They don't hold you as often. They don't call you 'beautiful' like they used to. At the same rate, women stop paying attention to their men. We cook and clean less. We don't care if what we say hurts their feelings. We stop trying to impress him. At this point, neither one of us is who we used to be, unless we truly are who we used to be... or we grow together. Growth can tear a relationship apart in an assortment of ways. If one person progresses, while the other doesn't this can lead to a divide. Also, if you aren' fulfilling each other like you used to... this changes things. I suppose this is why young couples rarely last: because your needs, interests and expectations change overtime --for yourself and for your partner. 

       Making a relationship last is hard. You have to truly love that person and be willing to compromise once you see the ugliest side of them. Sometimes people simply can't deal with the ugly. You also need to be progressing and moving at the same rate which means that your life goals and expectations need to align. Think about it: How can you move forward with someone if you're headed in opposite directions? & you might have thought she got lazy... but only god knows what she thought of you. I can talk all i want about my ex, but I'm sure he doesn't have the prettiest memories of me. 

Then there's the ultimate reason: Maybe it was never meant to be anyway. 

      Personally, I don't plan on moving in with a man until after our engagement (approx. a year before marriage). There's no point of pretending to be married with someone you don't want (or plan to) marry. In my opinion, you being to build a pretend life. Then when you guys break up, you have to separate everything. The break up just turns into more of a process than it needs to be. Before marriage, I need to know exactly what is mine. I also need time to know that person. You have to like them as a person and as a roommate. Some people want to move in all for love and can't deal with the roommate aspect. Like... he/she won't do dishes. That's how it is when you live with someone. Anyone No matter who it is. So if you're not ready to deal with the roommate piece, you're not ready to live with your significant other. (God, I appreciate college). 

    You have to gauge for yourself when the right time to move in with someone is. For a woman, that means are you ready to clean up after him all the time? And for a man... are you ready to put up with her all the time? (See, pretend marriage). If you couldn't be married to that person, you shouldn't move in with them. I'm not saying you need the ring, but you need the sentiment. There's no more bringing people home after the club. There's no more saying you were asleep by 11 and that's why you didn't pick up the phone. You have to make a real commitment. 

      It'll take time to get to know who someone really is. Unless you wait long enough for that person to grow on their own... to be an adult in their own right. To know how to maturely handle arguments and chores. With time, you get to experience the entire person, from there you'll know if you really like them. Sadly, that takes time. Honestly, people just aren't as great as they seem to be. We have flaws beyond even the ones we notice of ourselves. Part-time & full-time relationships are two completely different beasts. 

     If life is a bitch, time is her son.  

       

PS: 
Get it? Son? Of a bitch?
 I had to make sure my joke went through! I know they aren;t the greatest, but I at least want them to be understandable lol. & explaining jokes always remind me of BIG's verse in Jay-Z's "Booklyn's Finest" :)

Indisputably Black.

The assertion of racial beauty was was not a reaction to the self-mocking, humorous critique of cultural/racial foibles common in all groups, but against the damaging internalization of assumptions of immutable inferiority originating in an outside gaze.

 Toni Morrison, The Bluest Eye

I wanted blue eyes before. I can't recall exactly when and I probably didn't make a full out statement, but I know that I wanted them.  I might have been around the time when I was wearing colored contacts-- I had to be like 13-- or when I was getting my hair relaxed every month.  

I hated my hair. It wasn't long enough or soft enough for shiny enough.    

I just finished re-reading The Bluest Eye and this quote made me wonder on the topic of racial-self loathing that I touched on in "Oh, So You Don't Like Black Girls." 

I'll figure out what I want to say soon. For now, just think about the quote & maybe read the book!

Stay Tuned...

Black Barbie: The Baddest Barbie in the World

It's Barbie, Bitch. You can join the wave. --Nicki Minaj in Young Money's "Roger That"

I mean, isn't it about damn time?

     Last year, my sister and her husband volunteered to buy a Christmas gift for a child at a local New Jersey school. The little girl drew a picture of what she wanted: A black baby doll with blue eyes and blonde hair. Yea, right.  Still, my sister searched New Jersey and New York city and couldn't find a black doll that was of quality --that's if she could even find one at all. 

     Now, my sister might have been asking me because maybe I could help her out, being the darkest child in my family. But I didn't like baby dolls so I was no help. The only dolls I liked were Barbie dolls. Personally, I didn't like the black Barbie. I thought she was... too black. Now, I'm not sure if she actually  was or if I was so affected by society that I preferred the lighter Barbies. I don't quite remember.  Theresa was the "medium" Barbie and Christie was the darkest one and I thought she was... (if I call her "crispy" would that be really wrong? Yea, you're right) not representative of me. 

     There's a group out of Atlanta called The Black Dolls whose aim is to empower young black females by being positive roll models in their communities. Their movement, The Black Doll Affair, was launched in response to the documentary, "A Girl Like Me," by Kiri Davis in which the filmmaker recreated and recorded the 1940s doll experiments lead by Kenneth and Mamie Clark that showed that Black children preferred white dolls over black dolls. The results from their findings were used in the Brown vs. Board of Education desegregation case.  

 (View Davis' "A Girl Like Me" here.) It's actually really, really sad & eye opening. The saddest part has to be when the kids have to point out the doll that is "bad" and then the doll that looks like them... and they pick the same doll. 

     As a black woman, I've always wondered, What color doll will daughter play with? Do I choose? Do I let her choose? Do I ban white Barbies completely? What if she like the white one better? Wat do I say? What do I do? I really don't know... yet. I figure I'll start her with Black dolls early so that there is no other option. If there's one thing I learned from Freud in Psych 101, it's how to  train children.

The Sleazy Barbie @ Target

    But then there are other issues that come about. "Barbie" is actually the name of the white doll while all the others have to take on different names. I also find it partially offensive that in the descriptions on Walmart.com, they have to put "AFRICAN AMERICAN" right out so that consumers aren't confused. Oh, because we couldn't tell she was black? See for yourself. Other black dolls are also highly sexualized.  Check out this one Barbie sold at Target that a customer actually complained about: Read article Here. Earlier this year NY Daily News published an article about a Walmart in Louisiana selling its black Barbies for cheaper than the white Barbies: read article.

Cheaper Barbies @ Walmart

   Now, there are plenty people upset at Nicki Minaj and her "Barbie" movement injecting self-esteem into Black women, but I'll be the first to say, I really don't mind. It's been a long time --if ever-- that black women have been so proud to be themselves, loving and accentuating their curves in latex and pleather like it's their full-time job. On a YouTube.com video called "Twitter Beef", Nicki explains the Barbie mentality and what it means to her and her fans. She argues that mentally,  you have to be a "Bad Bitch" to be a Barbie.

     Shit, sign me up.

     If Nicki Minaj is what the new Black barbie looks like, I ain't mad at it. As a matter of fact,  Vogue Black (Italian issued, I believe) featured an all-black photo shoot issue celebrating Barbie's 50th birthday (even though the Black Barbie is only 30). Check the beauty here.  My question is: If a White girl were running around calling herself Barbie, would it be a problem? -- oh wait... that already happens.

I'm just glad I (and one day my daughters) can finally say, "That Barbie is pretty and she looks just like me."

Oh, So You Don't Like Black Girls?

I'm a Bad Bitch, I ain't never been a mixed breed. 

WTF is it with everyone?

     First, these two guys tell my friends that Black girl could never get with them. Both of these guys are light-skinned. Both, technically Black (according to the US Census Bureau and if they think they are not, they are indeed mistaken). Now, I could publicly bash the guys here, but I'm going to restrain myself. One is my godson's father. The other an ex-convict. I don't date dads or men who have done legit jail-time. I also don't date men under 6'2.  & now, I don't date men who don't get salaries. Mostly though, I don't date men who don't date Black women. Don't you worry you're little heads off.

They would never have a chance with this Black girl. 

     Then, I'm talking to my cousin about her baby son & she jokingly talks about how her son "don't like Black girls. He likes white girls." I responded saying, "He'll learn," but what I should have said is "Poor thing. I'm sorry to hear that he'll be so deprived." Yes, deprived --from good lovin' and good food. BTW, I'm Dominican and so are my cousin and her son. Here's a PSA: If you ain't White or Asian. You Black. Accept it. I promise it doesn't hurt. Trust men, I've been Black for a while.

     What might hurt some (and I've seen it hurt my little cousins who are my complexion and/or darker) is when the Black jokes and comments start coming around and they don't know how to defend themselves. I mean, it's only a matter of time until they do and it takes something extra to deal with it. How do I deal? Simple: I know that I'm beautiful. Anyone who's ever commented on my complexion has had far worse things to worry about in their own physical and (even more frequently) personality/intellect areas. I'm not phased. & jokes aren't funny when there's no reaction. That's like the only rule for jokes.

So... I'm a bad bitch and I come in the best flavor.

     I have a close guy friend who is Black. (This man is black Black. His family born & raised in the USofA generation after generation. They speak no other language and come from no other country except Africa.) He told me he "doesn't like Black girls." He even tried to convince me that a girl he dated (who is Cape Verdean --a country off the coast of Africa) isn't Black because she's lighter than me. I don't hold it against him, I'm just sorry he hates himself so much. 

     With all these bright lights on these celebs, we seem to have forgotten what a sista actually looks like. Beyonce, Nicki Minaj, Keri Hilson, Zoe Saldana, Halle Berry, Sanai Lathan, Jada Pinkett-Smith, Gabrielle Union--these are sistas. And they are darker than you think they are.  Make-up & bright lights do wonders. Trust me.

     The only thing that upsets me in this situation is that many dark-skinned men prefer a lighter woman when many light-skinned women have to make excuses before dating a Black man. He's usually "cute to be so dark." She don't really like you. She might like your money or your _ _ _ _ size. With the last guy I was involved with, my friends could only say, "He has a cute smile". (FYI: This guy was beautifully chocolate and absolutely delicious.)

     Lil' Wayne has a lyric in "Right Above It" that goes, "How do you say what's never said? Beautiful Black woman. I bet you she look better red." Excuse me Lil' Wayne, but how do I say, "Fuck You"? I don't want to be red. Do you want to be red? Do you want your daughter to be red? For some reason, people think that I too have a problem with my skin color. No, you  have more of an issue with my skin color that I do. I love my skin color. I don't hide from the sun. And I moisturize twice daily to maintain its brilliance.  Here's a better question: If those pretty light-skinned girls were dark as me, could they be as pretty as me? Here's the answer: Highly, highly, highly doubt it. 

FYI: There's nothing in me that wishes my skin were lighter. 

What if I was blue? Would I be dateable then? Cuz I still wouldn't date these minimum wage working, no book reading, can't-spell-assed, small _ _ _ _  size, mediocre stroke having, no respect for their mothers, obviously don't know their history and don't-value-women-assed light skinned men.