Smile. That's all it really takes, forreal. I sometimes sit back and wonder what makes people so angry, but removed from the situation, it's easy enough to see why.
I live for life. Simply because I have one. I'm not sure exactly what I'm working towards but I'm fully aware of the multiple commas in the total. Life ain't easy. & it sure ain't cheap --not of you want to live right. Not if you want things to be a little easier.If money buys anything, it's convenience. truth be told, I'm a little pissed off I wasn't offered a ride to the bus this morning. But instead of complaining, I understand the the simple solution is to get a vehicle of my own. I refuse to complain. I refuse to sit and consider what someone ELSE should be doing for me because (lease believe) when the that check comes in, it'll be addressed to me & me only.
I've just caught myself falling again. I'm luck I was here. I'm grateful I pay attaention because the moment I begin to feel like "this is it," they fuck up & i'm stuck convincing myself he doesn't know any better. & I know that he doesn't. Still, I don't have the time to teach a man EVERYTHING. I can't hold your hand through everything. Either this is right,or it's not, but we need to figure it out now. & until we do,I keep the key to my heart around my neck. I've changed the locks. This is no spare. I don't have any children, and I'm thankful for it. Not because I don't see the beauty in children, but when I feel I'm giving myself too much to someone, I step back and reevaluate -the shit is new to me. I'm the only person who really matters in my life. I'm the one who has to get me where I need to be. So how can I possibly continue to concern myself with things/people outside of that?
